I'm Back

I haven't written in this thing for a long time. I have recently decided that I'm going to make a healthier life for myself. Not so much in the physical sense, but in the mental sense. This summer was an extreme turning point in my life. I changed, no, developed a lot.
Anyways, I'm going to be posting more and, hopefully, on more interesting subjects. I'm going to focus more on my writing and work on submitting pieces. I have recently joined a band playing keyboard so that will be another thing to look out for. I just really want to be happy with things. I hope this is entertaining. I'm not shallow and I never was but I still need to shift my focus.

I Only Love You For Your Apathy

There's something incedibly "scene" about the idea of posting poetry in a blog.So I will not today.


My friends are supposedly moving to Seattle.I find this funny because it cost three times as much in Seattle as it is in Boca Raton.Recently,I've started investing my time in new people.Last night assured me that my decision was right.
I turned up at a friend's house and the second I opened the door it was slammed in my face and I was told to leave for two hours.It turns out that a friend of mine's mother was meeting the mother hen of the group and this friend did not want us there.I would like to know what is so offensive about us kids.The acid heads were allowed in the house but the responsible kids where told to leave.

I'm extremely angry.The person whos house it was wanted us to be there but this girl wouldn't have that.She acted like she was so ashamed of us that her mom simply couldn't see that she may associate herself with the likes of me and my friends.This is mean,but I know that she will most likely lose her friends and her boyfriend due to her lack of balls and ability to stand up to her mom.

Life goes on.

I love VU...still.I can't fucking wait for Control!!!!!!!!

After Hours

I'm going to a party tonight.It's "Rock&Roll" themed.I think it's just an excuse for all my emo/xcore/goth/poser friends to dress up in slutty clothes with lots of black eyeliner.I'm going against the crowd and doing a 60's rock theme.It's a Velvet Underground & Nico influenced look.Banana not included.Too bad I don't have a tambourine or a German accent.I'll have pictures of my brother in his "White Snake outfit" up soon.

I didn't hang out with any friends this weekend.I'm starting to think that my friend was subconsciously using me to get to my brother.I know that he feels more important when he makes music with my brother.He has no interest in hanging out with me unless my brother is home.If they don't like me,then they shouldn't use me.
I just haven't put a social life on the top of my list.I've been writing TONS and reading a lot.Studying the Hindenberg Crash of 1937,as well.I think I'll take up a second language this summer and maybe an instrument.I don't want to be one of those women that has such a definate plan in life they end up killing themselves from stress.I just decided that whatever happens,happens.And when it happens I want to be finely educated.I don't want to say "Oh,I have a husband now.That's one thing to check off my list.Now I can become a doctor and then a teacher and then Malibu Barbie."
Woman can do whatever they want but they can't do EVERYTHING at the same time.I just wish I were smart and I don't want to feel like I missed out.
Which is why I'm focusing on other things now,not a social life.I'm going to prep school next year and I'm sure I'll make friends and have a good social life.I have to wear a plaid mini skirt which isn't too bad.The thing that I always look for at uniformed schools is the kid's shoes.What did I see?I saw a girl in a plaid skirt and striped polo wearing pink,glitter eyeliner and sparkly zebra ballet flats.
I'm so excited for my sister to come in to town.AND I GET TO SEE THE SHINYS SOON!!!!!YAY!


This is a repost.I thought it was interesting:



"What Makes An Ugly?"

2. Uglies have vomit all over the front of them. I mean, this is a pretty clear statement. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out that if somebody has vomit all over the front of them, whether or not the face is involved, said person is an Uglie. Once several years ago I woke up in my bed with all my clothes on from the night before, and there was vomit all over the front of me. I assume it was mine, but hey, I wasn’t gonna taste it to be sure. But my outfit had been standard: shirt, pants, underwear, belt, socks, shoes. I woke up wearing my shirt, pants, belt, socks, and shoes (with vomit all over the front of them). You’ll notice that I did not wake up wearing underwear. It was on me the night before, but it was not on me in the morning. I still have no idea what happened, and I never found it, either. Somebody out there knows what went down. OMG date me?! That’s what I said earlier! I have since washed the vomit off (most of) the front of me!

3. Pretty people can be Uglies. If they are total douchebags and/or aren’t attracted to me.

Confusion

I don't know what to do.Should I go back to school or continue being homeschooled?I don't know if I have much of a choice but my mom is really pushing Boca Christian at me.I really don't want to go there though.I'm judgemental,I know.She says I have a math and science brain and I would be wasting that if I stayed homeschooled.I can't get hands on teaching at home I guess.I think I'll end up being homeschooled this year and then going next year.I agree with her though.I do have a problem solving kind of brain.

I don't know....hmmm.Why are all the songs on the Kooks' EP so short?The line in Bus Song,"I waited and waited until I was dropped off" sounds sooooo much like "I waited and waited until I was jerked off."

I'm a perv.

These photos give me the creeps.

Hold On To Your Kite

I love Kate Bush.


You know what?I'm really boring.I can't even believe how boring I've become.

So I saw The Honorary Title last week with Rocket and Butch Walker & The Let's Go Out Tonites.THT was sooooooooooo good.Jarrod was extremely nice.I was a little shocked.He didn't even mention the dildonomous micrphones or jizz blits.Some girl said he had chicken legs.What a whore.

I'm also getting really fat.I'm fat AND boring.I want to be skinny. :(

Just FYI.Sarah Lewitinn is NOT married.Take a joke you livejournal kids.

The God Damn Truth

Matt Friction is THE best thing ever.

I'm Not Fond Of Asking

I was in the mall yesterday when I got a text from Alex saying "HE"S HERE!!!!!!" I knew exactly what he was trying to say.Drew was at the mall.How weird was that?I knew he wouldn't have the nerve to talk to me because I walked passed him like six times and all he did was stare at me like I broke him into a thousand peices.It doesn't help that he walked passed me as I was talking to Ian whom he hates.According to various sources he hasn't showered since I dumped him...no wonder he hasn't gotten laid.He definately looks like he hasn't bothered to shower in weeks.I think he was high because he talked to my brother for two seconds.I know he knows I'm not caring about what happened.True or false:He's a loser.....TRUE.
Now he's blaming my sister for out breaking up.She "poisoned" our relationship.Yeah right.He just wants an excuse for why he got dumped.

Lord,It Clashed With Your Shoes

My bike broke.I'm really depressed about that.

I first heard of CocoRosie when Patrick Wolf started playing violin for all their live shows.Of course he also supported them on his European tour a year and a half ago.I saw a video of them playing live on a couch.One girl played a gazoo and a harp and the over sang and pressed the buttons on some toddler's video game to compose electronics.Their voices aren't very conventional but for some reason their sound is so serene.The lyrics are sooooo amazing."By Your Side" is one of those songs that really makes you feel like you're in love.They didn't start out as musicians.They started out by dressing up the in most glamorous/strangest outfits and drenching their faces in make up.They got completely wasted and ran around a track at 3 in the morning.They did this almost every day.Why?Becasue they're French.But it's pretty magical when something starts out so ironic and ends in music.I know alot of people won't like them.They're lyrics are really good and remind me of a friend in some cases."Terrible Angels" is my favorite song by them.CocoRosie's uniqueness just astounds me.

If you don't like the music atleast appreciate the cover art:

Can anyone help me find a book?I want Picture Of Daddy-Thelma's Story by Thelma Ásdísardóttir.It's an Icelandic book about a woman dealing with sexual and emotional abuse.It's supposed to be life changing.She won "Woman Of The Year" for her writings.The book is an autobiography.I can't find it anywhere though.

Take It Or Leave It

"The last time I said 'I love you' I really didn't mean it at all.It was just a word."-The Lashes

I hate to say that's true but it is.You wouldn't be so vengeful to me if you really loved me.I'm sorry that I broke your heart but I'm 14.I can't be pressured physically and emotionally.I've never been in love and before you I never even had a boyfriend.It's just not fair to lead you along when I KNOW I don't feel the same.You could have done more for me.You could have told me you smoked pot instead of hiding it.You could have taken me out on fucking date!Three months and all you did for me was smother me in unwanted affection that was only established to make YOU feel better.I can't take care of you.Maybe I need to be fucking taken care of for once.Almost every weekend you asked me to hook up with you when you knew I wasn't ready for that.No wonder I felt like you were using me.You blatently told me last night you liked me because I'm pretty.That's not shallow?I can't be this scene girl with multi colored hair.I can't follow you around to make you feel better about yourself.I can't just suck you off when you want it.


I'm sorry about that rant.This week was a real eye opener for me.I need to further more discover who my real friends are.Atleast I'll always have my darling Rosemary.My bestie for life.

And I would also like to say that maybe I would rather sleep with Patrick Wolf then my ex like he said I would.Want to know why?Because I've had a longer conversation with him then I ever had with you in the past 3 months.I really love you.


You're never coming in my eye.

Was It Worth All That War Just To Win

"I must say it's very refreshing to see a young lad who's been through so many turmoils and came out the other end because of love and perseverance,not because of some rubbish My Chemical Romance song"-Patrick Wolf


This is so true.Ive said this many times before but Gerard has not saved a life.Atleast not any of the lives he claims to have saved.
More enchanting words from the music god:
"I'll never say 'Hang in there because no one understands you and the world is a scary place.' God wouldn't have put us in this world if we couldn't survive.I grew up so confused and now I have complete clarity.The world is my neverland.These things are tests and I want people to get through them and end up happy.Live in a world full of color.I hope I can do that with my music."

He said that last part in an interview he agreed to do for a high school newspaper.How amazing.

PATRICK WOLF AND HIS LOVE AFFAIR WITH VITAMIN C!

I'm going to start making my own commercials now.I want to cry after seeing this video:

OH JESUS CHRIST ALMIGHTY FUCKING SHIT BAG DOUCHE WHORE FUCKER!!!!!!!!AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok..now that I got that off my chest here is a lovely video of Patrick knitting on the train.He appears during the whole thing but during the end he starts singing to no one in particular.At about five minutes he explains what he's making.

Does Politics Turn Ya On?

I've been really fascinated by a few Nico records which I downloaded.I do prefer Patrick Wolf's "Afraid" to Nico's original version but I definately like her sound and use of electronic organs.She does sing like a retard though.Like she seriously sounds like that.
"Listen,I've got a fabulous idea.Let's take money from the poor box."-Holly Woodlawn.
I love that quote.My little sister seems to think she's Geri Miller.She keeps pissing in my sink.Just to clarify things I'm talking about the sister that just turned 5 yesterday.

I seriously don't understand how Lycanthropy is a joke.As I read more things about that album I start to understand what the song Lycanthropy is about more and more.As I understand Lycanthropy I start to understand Short Story.Patrick was quite permiscuous with men.

Ew...A Car Full Of Mexicans

I will not talk about the Patrick Wolf,My Chemical Romance,or any other band I love/hate.

So what to talk about?Hmmmm...........

Why do Kiki Kannibal and Hilary Haywire have to be such bitches to eachother?Seriously,who cares what your hair looks like?You're both scene girls anyways.Everybody knows if you're a scene girl you get no respect and you have to bone a bunch of guys.Hilary's minnions are much more attractive than she.I agree that if Hilary had a side sweep she would look like a small emo boy.

You Mean Brits

All those UK crazed girls say they don't like The Magic Position.They say it's too happy.I'm a huge Patrick Wolf fan and I know he writes what he feels.Infact,he OVER writes.He's already written his 4th album.If Patrick has written what he feels in the last year and a half then that must mean he's been somewhat happy.Don't you want Patrick to be happy?I do.He's the most adorable thing ever and he should always smile.



I might add that there are alot of songs on his new album that aren't so happy.Remember that before you get your painties in a knot.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE:YOU ARE NOT QUEEN.

I was in the ATL this past weekend and it was pretty fun.I got to see my bestie/my sister which was awesome.We got sushi and I avoided getting bitten by a cat.My new Betsy Johnson dress is the shit.I was reading Spin and it was the first time in my periodical history that I wanted to scream.I contained it because I was on an airplane.Panic!At The Gay Bar has back-up dancers now and My Chemical Romance saves lives.MRC doesn't save lives.....doctors and therapists save lives.I sound so practical,don't I?
I believe that certain things can change a way you live your life,especialy music.When I started listening to Patrick Wolf I saw the whole world differently.I saw the happy things that weren't necessarily real in most peoples minds.I saw a genius that created his own keyboard by age 12.I saw that music could be creating without cliche guitar riffs.I saw an innocent mind.And most of all,I saw strange feet.
I'm saying that MCR can't save your life.When people say that a song saved their life it's only because they're too chicken to kill themselves and they don't want to give people they love the credit because they just "hate the world".Alteast they want people to think they're dark and mysterious and no one can save the.Not even themselves or their loved ones.
BUT WAIT!
"I am not afraid to keep on livin'.I am not afraid to walk this world alone.Honey,if you stay you'll be forgiven.Nothing you can say will stop me going home."

First off....that makes no sense!That third line is nonsense that they threw in there to rhyme with the rest of the chorus.My Chem,I don't care how many people's lives you've "saved" but I hate you.I used to think Spin wasn't so bad but after this I will not buy another issue of Spin unless it features my favorite bands.If it ever does feature my favotire bands I will probably shoot myself but first I'll listen to some MCR so they can keep my from pulling the trigger.NOT.

I'm pondering on the idea of working for Paper Magazine.I always wanted to design clothes but it's too late to learn how to sow at this point.I love music but I'm pretty sure I don't have talent in composing.I also love writing,especialy when I can write about something I have feelings about and not ust something I made up.They're basicaly a version of Nylon that's been around for 20 years and has yet to sell out.I like Nylon but theyre getting there.

Darling,These Days My Favorite View Is You.

Today is such a happy Tuesday.Last night/this morning I got a phone call at 12:30 from my boyfriend Drew.This didn't surprise me at all but I need to take care of her....him....in his time of need.Why is he in need and why am I jumping for joy?This can only mean one thing:

FROM FIRST TO LAST BROKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!
It seems to be that Sonny Moore wants a solo career.Could he be more of a midget jerk?

"So come on now, open wide, open up now.
Don't you think it's time
To look back at that boy on his way to school
Such a heavy heart, such a heavy jewel hiding something that one day he'll sell
But now if no one shows, no one tells a thing, no."-Overture

Does that mean he has something large inside his pants?It's a Patrick Wolf so it wouldn't surprise me if that were the case.


I just spilled diet coke in my computer....

Andy Warhol Is Bad

Andy Warhol is bad,my friends.He was kind of an ass but you can't really call a dead person an ass....especialy when they're hair was more then unfortunate.
Anyways,Justin needs to post another Shitty Web Thing asap.

I Want To Buy A Lighthouse

There are no Lighthouses for sale on Ebay.What the hell is that?!What happened to "Whatever IT is you want...Ebay has IT"?
That's a huge lie because I want a lighthouse and I can't find one on Ebay.I don't know what I would do with a lighthouse but it seems to be such a glamorous and serene idea.I kind of want a train too but I suppose I'll start on the lighthouse first.So please help me make that happen.
I want this one in Godrevy:


I'll take this one in Whales too.

I'm thinking I'll paint it orange and black leopard print.

If you're feeling sorry for me(which I'm sure you're not)you can donate to my Beauty In Sinking Ships:If Anyone Deserves It,It's Me Fund.Basicaly you give me enough money to hold Mat Devine's mother for ransom until Mat agrees to give me a copy.Of course you could always kidnap Jessica Stramer until Jon Radtke gives me his copy.Although I don't think he actualy has one because he tends to be off on timing.He said they were going to tour with the Pink Spiders a year before they did.He said they were going to The Masquerade long before they did.I think he has pyschic abilities.So by the time I get enough money to kidnap Jess he will probably have it.Unless of course he has the same idea as I do and wants to take Mat Devines mother for ransome.It wouldn't cost him as much.

Now I don't know if this is in fact Mat Devine's mother but it came up on an image search.Just go with this reference.It can't hurt.Plus,I see a resemblence.


This blog is going nowhere fast.I thought I would just say that On The Last Day is a pussy band.They pulled off their tour last night for a reason unknown to me.They probably went to Moe's and never came back because they got fat.If they do get fat then they would be copying Aiden more then ever.Sorry wiL but you were fat.

Testing.

Test.Test.This is only a test.

Good day.

-Mia